Drinking all the moisture from the air.. I am so dry..
Let me get a sip of what you want me to say.. I am so thirsty..

Sunday, December 26, 2010

A DNA connection..

I love how we can be hours apart and have a connection like identical twins.

I know when I'm feeling like shit, and there is no reason behind said shitness, that all I have to do is give you a call. I then will know why I'm feeling like shit because you're feeling exactly the same.
I know when I suddenly get quite sick, that I can call you and you will be sick aswell. It's just like that time you got burnt. My skin went red and I started burning all over, only to be greeted minutes later by a phonecall from dad saying you have burnt yourself from the waist down.
We are not twins. Not even close. You're 4 years older yet we share the same feelings. It's very weird, but I would not swap this bond we have for anything.

Monday, December 6, 2010

2 for the fruit and 1 for the loop.

Have you ever gone to a shopping centre and just wondered the isles through random boredness and ended up carting a random bag of goodies home?
This actually just happened.. It actually happens to me alot. Which is why I know, I would make a really.. REALLY bad pregnant women.

So after being in hospital basically all day again, I return home.. As usual after being so exhausted I nap.. And when I say nap I mean, drool patch the size of a small wading pool and huge pillow snugs. Thanks to my pillow smelling just like the lady. I finally grow some balls and wake up.. Mind you growing balls definitely defeats the whole entire purpose of this entry. Moving riiiiight along. So I wake up and stumble around my bedroom to find some sort of clothing items. I get a sudden urge to go shopping.. I find my skinnies, whack on a sweet band tee and head off to Coles. This is where it all went semi downhill.

Don't ever head to a shopping center when you have no idea what you're looking for. It's dangerous.

I park Miri and anxiously walk through the front doors.. I tripped a little because honestly.. I really suck at walking in thongs.. But you know.. Whatevs!
After walking every isle of the shopping center I leave with a $30 bill.. I'm quite excited about this as it's normally alot more when I go shopping.
Upon my arrival home, I inspect my bags of shopping goodness to discover my amazing shopping skills.

Grocery List consists of -
5 x Tinned Lemon Tuna
1 x Pack of Arnotts chocolate cookies
1 x Zymill
1 x BIGFUCKOFFCANOF Nesquick
1 x BIGMOTHERFUCKOFFBOX of Fruit Loops
1 x Tub of Philidelphia Cheese *major thrust points here*
and 1 x Thingymajig of White Grapes.

I think I'm pregnant?

Friday, November 26, 2010

I felt you in my legs, before I even met you.

Lost Realist.

Growing up I've always felt very incomplete. I haven't felt fully complete until lastnight/all hours of this morning. Standing there in her bedroom basically naked holding signs of need/want/completion. It was 1am. Sorry about that. You fell asleep in my arms.. I tried to talk but just a nervous squeak exited my mouth.. You stirred a little as I was trying to move. Asking if I was ok, I replied with a "yes, I just need to do something".. You were quite worried but let me up.. As I exited your room, running frantically naked around your house to find some sort of writing device and paper. I found your sharpie and a note pad. Holding the sharpie in my hands, I had to take deep breaths to stop my hands from shaking. Even my breathing was affected and I could hardly stand. Pressing pen to paper I nervously wrote these words.. "So I've actually never done this before but..." and on the next piece of paper writing "But will you be my umm.. urmm.. Girlfriend.. Please <3".. I was so reluctant to come back into your bedroom, but this just had to happen.
From the moment I laid eyes on you, my world had come to a complete stop. My first words being completely hopeless but they made you smile. Who would think someones first words to you would be "If you were a burger at McDonalds, you would be a McGorgeous!".. Fuck yes I'm charming as fuck. Thanks Tenn for doing this to me =D.
We spent all day together. I know from the moment our eyes met, there was something there. After leaving you that night, you were the only thing on my brain.. you still are the only thing on my brain. Feeling your hands on my skin and your lips connect to mine.. You tell me I'm beautiful and I actually believe you. You make me feel perfect in your arms. You make me feel like the only person in this world. It's hard to breathe when I'm around you because you take the breath from my lungs. My heart beats so hard and my world spins.
It's been nearly 7 months since the day we met. My feelings grow larger for you everyday.. and who would think I would be standing basically naked at the front of your bedroom door, holding paper signs asking you to be my girlfriend..
I opened your door and walked in.. Switching on the light I stood there holding the first sign up.. You're laying there covering your eyes from the light, but I just stood there silently holding the sign waiting for you to look up.. You turn your head and look at me, reading the first sign.. I see a little smirk on your face.. I drop the sign and show you the next..
You're smile lit up my heart as you nodded your head and basically jumped into my arms.

Last night, You completed me.
Thank you.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Use me to use you.

Its hard to trust a stranger
You're a stranger to yourself
So who's to blame
Drown away emotion
As you numb yourself from any real
Pain

There's nothing more real
And nothing's what it seems
We're always caught in between
There's nothing left to feel
But still you can not leave
You don't know what you need

I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me to use you
To use you
Yeah

Loneliness a ritual
The walls you build around us feel
Safe
Silence is always comfortable
Is this the only reason that you
Stay

There's nothing more real
And nothing's what it seems
We're always caught in between
There's nothing left to feel
But still you cannot leave
You don't know what you need

I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me!

Feel your arms around me
Wondering where this will go
I feel your arms around me
Will you ever want this like i do

I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me!

I know that you use me to use you
I know that you use me to use you
To use you
To use you
To use you.....

Someone take these handcuffs off my wrists, and break the chain of habit.